Solid

It’s officially September, the days are getting shorter and will soon start getting colder.  At the present moment, I am busy preparing for a weekend workshop during which I will share my experience working with fertility with other acupuncturists here in Poland.  While writing this presentation, I am forced to review my knowledge, thought processes and tendencies in treatment.  This happens to be something I do often anyway, but never quite this in depth.  I am forced to put my own prejudices about certain treatments aside in order to present a clear, incorporating view.  I am forced to be quite clear about why I have those prejudices and why I do the treatments that I do.  I must, absolutely must, review all the basic information and reform my own foundation upon which I practice.  It’s great.  I haven’t felt so solid in months. 

The process of clearing, cleaning and making room is helpful in all areas of life.  This can deal solely with thoughts.  It can also deal solely with “things” - think - spring cleaning.  Interestingly enough, this process has been making me desire yoga.  I have been desiring more yoga since the beginning of the summer and have started to do short asana series in the mornings.  This also makes me feel solid.  This feeling of solidarity is something that I often want to share with my patients.  I realize that life is full of unknowns and I actually quite like this and have incorporated that variable into my own feelings of solidness.  This means that my solidness is felt now and only now.  But this moment, right now, here…. is quite solid.  I know where I am and how I feel right now.  I do not know how I will feel at the end of this sentence. 

Being in a place where I feel solid allows me to make concrete decisions.  I am clear about what I want and am clear that the next step I take toward this goal depends on when I choose to pick up my foot and place it down again.  This is something that I like to share with my patients.  I see about 80 women per week with infertility issues.  By their actions, speech and movement one can quite often see that they do not feel solid.  They base their next decision on what the doctor says.  They move forward when their massage therapist says so.  They change their diets only when their acupuncturist says it is necessary.  Many of these women have lost a sense of how and when to listen to themselves.  As an acupuncturist, I quite often give dietary advice.  I am aware that this advice will help the patients that adhere to it.  I also know that patients will only adhere to it when they see the sense in it.  They will only continue to follow recommendations when it was their solid decision that lead them to start following the recommendations in the first place. 

The trick with all of this is that patients undergoing fertility care often feel quite lost and have lost faith in themselves.  They may think:  “what I have decided up until this point, hasn’t helped me, maybe all these people know better”  or   “Lord knows I don’t know what to do, I’ll just do what they say and cross my fingers”  or  “maybe if I do everything perfectly like everyone says, it’ll work.  I’ll do it all.  Just say it will work”.  One of the purposes of the Treasure Hunt program that I started with Ewa Blaszczak, lifecoach is to give women time and support to return to themselves.  To reconnect with their own divine wisdom.  To feel that the decisions they are making are their own.  To plant seeds of hope, faith and joy.  To allow them to create their own solid platform from which they can jump, hop, skip, step or dance… whatever feels right to them.   in the moment.  right now.

September 01 2009 09:39 am | Articles

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